"The reason,the real reason,in fact the only reason of why we are here in this pathetic state is because of your ignorance of getting over your past.You will not admit this but you have not forgotten abt her or should I say Esther.You keep on saying that it's over,you've gotten over her but in actual fucking fact,you didnt.She still lingers in your goddamn "brilliant" mind.You still spare a thought for her.I hate to say this but you,Fi still loves her.
God knows when that will change.Im tired of this.Im tired of people asking about us and have no fucking answer to their questions.I have waited so long and I am done of giving you chance after chance hoping that one day,you will finally see of what is happening to us but I guess Im too naive and stubborn to think that way.You may not notice this,in fact you have not notice this but we have been like this since September 08 and now it's fucking 2010 and we are in the same status as we first started hanging out.Can you believe that?You want me wait somemore?
I know you've been hurt.Fuck,the whole world know you've been hurt but the whole world also know that you've changed.I know you've changed but not entirely.If you can change to being that quiet,naive guy that doesnt catches anyone attention to the havoc-wrecking Tony Starck guy that you think you are,I don't see of why is it so hard for you to change your perspective in relationships,most importantly love.
You are not the only one in the world who have gone through this.There are others like you but I believe they have gotten over it.I have gotten about my past.Now all I think are present and the future and I want to include you in both my present and future but that is not to me to decide now.If they have gotten about your past,if I have gotten over my fucking past,I dont see why you cant do the same?
Im not giving you anything anymore.All Im asking is that you take a look at yourself and think of what our relationship means to you.Most importantly,ask yourself whether you have totally gotten over Esther.If you think that Im not the sort of girl that you think you should be with compared to the one that I won't mention,I totally understand that.Once I leave here,don't call or leave me a msg because I wont call or return that msg and I don't want us to hangout for now.Im not waiting for an answer Fi.Im waiting for an action.It's your call boy.
Take good care of yourself in Brunei especially your knee.I fucking hate goodbyes but if this is it,than this is goodbye."
And then she left.This is the most I could remember of the things she told me that Saturday.Im lost for words now and I guess that is all I have to say.
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