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"The reason,the real reason,in fact the only reason of why we are here in this pathetic state is because of your ignorance of getting over your past.You will not admit this but you have not forgotten abt her or should I say Esther.You keep on saying that it's over,you've gotten over her but in actual fucking fact,you didnt.She still lingers in your goddamn "brilliant" mind.You still spare a thought for her.I hate to say this but you,Fi still loves her.

God knows when that will change.Im tired of this.Im tired of people asking about us and have no fucking answer to their questions.I have waited so long and I am done of giving you chance after chance hoping that one day,you will finally see of what is happening to us but I guess Im too naive and stubborn to think that way.You may not notice this,in fact you have not notice this but we have been like this since September 08 and now it's fucking 2010 and we are in the same status as we first started hanging out.Can you believe that?You want me wait somemore?

I know you've been hurt.Fuck,the whole world know you've been hurt but the whole world also know that you've changed.I know you've changed but not entirely.If you can change to being that quiet,naive guy that doesnt catches anyone attention to the havoc-wrecking Tony Starck guy that you think you are,I don't see of why is it so hard for you to change your perspective in relationships,most importantly love.

You are not the only one in the world who have gone through this.There are others like you but I believe they have gotten over it.I have gotten about my past.Now all I think are present and the future and I want to include you in both my present and future but that is not to me to decide now.If they have gotten about your past,if I have gotten over my fucking past,I dont see why you cant do the same?

Im not giving you anything anymore.All Im asking is that you take a look at yourself and think of what our relationship means to you.Most importantly,ask yourself whether you have totally gotten over Esther.If you think that Im not the sort of girl that you think you should be with compared to the one that I won't mention,I totally understand that.Once I leave here,don't call or leave me a msg because I wont call or return that msg and I don't want us to hangout for now.Im not waiting for an answer Fi.Im waiting for an action.It's your call boy.

Take good care of yourself in Brunei especially your knee.I fucking hate goodbyes but if this is it,than this is goodbye."

And then she left.This is the most I could remember of the things she told me that Saturday.Im lost for words now and I guess that is all I have to say.

Injured Couch Potato

It looks like that my left knee with all the fibula(muscles for the norm) within it is the weakest part of my freaking body!!!Time and time again,it's that side of the knee that never fails to trouble me and now is no exception.An unexpected accident and booom!!!

Sometimes I wonder seriously if I should give up playing the sports that requires my knee co-ordination at it's optimum.Sometimes I really do wonder...

In all honesty,I did not reveal the full extend of my injuries to the masses as it would make them worry.From my family to my friends,they knew only to a certain extent of my injuries and that's about it.They have enough problems on their hands and I wouldnt want my injury to be a concern to them.Even when I was admitted to hospital,I barred anyone from visiting me as I do not want them to see me in this state.Not now.Not Ever.

Now,Im back to where I am in February.Being an injured couch potato and doing absolutely nothing purposeful and useful.I have no idea of my comeback date but I hope that it would be before Stance's birthday dinner as in a way,being the "A HOLE "that she is,I wouldnt want to miss it!!!Hahaha.

I think that is all I have to say about this post.After this,it's back to the television set,junkin on snacks and snore till cows come home.Damn,this is a fat boy mentality!!!

I Hate This!!!

That Awesome Trip

Sawadeekap!!!Eeerh,is that how you spell it?Hmmx,anyway,I just wana let you folks know that Im back from the ever so sunny region of Phuket!!!

If I have it my way,I wouldnt want to go back home at all but I have to as Im not ready to be living the life of a fugitive!!!Not yet at least..Hahaha...

Simply,this Phuket trip is one of the best trips that I've had so far.I was so reluctant to go back home that I was leaping with joy when I heard that our flight was delayed by 2 hours!!!Crazy right?Maybe Stance and Trace beg to differ but for me,thank god the flight was delayed even though I have to stay at the airport but it is still in Phuket.Enough said!!!

Whoever says that Phuket is just about the beach,water sports and not shopping,they are either lying or they are just travelling goons or dummies!!!While Phuket do a beautiful scenic beach and great water sports activities,it can also be classified as a shopping heaven and being a shopaholic that I am,I committed tons of shopping sins out there and my loots are mega in size compared to the loots from Trace and Stance and mind you,they are ladies and I outdo them in shopping!!!My God!!!

Speaking of Trace and Stance,in all honesty,being the great friends they are,I have to thank them for this Phuket trip simply because they make this trip happen.Im just the guy who goes along with it(Sometimes iritating them with questions about the trip!!!)but they are the ones who plan it right from airline tickets to hotel reservations and they done it right to a T.So,THANK YOU TRACE & STANCE FOR THIS TRIP AND HELPING ME TO BARGAIN MY LOOTS!!!We should do this again but this time,I'll help with the itinery yeah?!?Hahaha.

Btw girls,Im still straight yeah?!?I like girls and I love girls and that is the bottomline because I said so!!!I know that both of you treat me a "girl"(I wonder why???) but Im a guy and Im straight.FULLSTOP!!!

With that being cleared in open air,I guess that this is it.Like I said,I never wanted to return back home.Im already missing the Fanta drinks,the street vendors that serve the ever so tasty chicken noodle soup,the char grilled chicken,the thai massages(It's the clean one btw) and of coz the tuk tuk tik tik tak tak!!!Hahaha..

My regrets was not going to the real Muay Thai fights and also taste their jumbo tiger king prawns but on the bright side,it gives me a reason of me going back there right?!?

Well,come to think of it,I could see myself staying there.Be a cable ski instructor by day on one hand and learn Muay Thai and fight by night on the other.Sounds like a plan don't you think???

I Need Another Trip!!!