My Rants

This is call a blog for a fucking reason and that is to say what you want no matter what the consequences are.No matter how the senstive or painful the subject is,this is a place of zen for a person to let everything out and hopefully he or she will be a bit better once everything is translated onto a post.

I am in a mess right now and this is what I want to do now.POST something on this pathetic blog of mine and I don't give a damn what people think and happens next.I just want to blog.

Im no Mark Zuckerberg as potrayed in the Social Network.In that movie,while blogging the ugly truth about his ex-girlfriend and slightly tipsy,he went to create FaceMash and then went on to start up something called Facebook.Have you heard of it yet?Like they say what happens after that is history.What can I say?That guy is a genious.But..what a minute.Im not here to talk about Mark or anyone else.Im no genious even though I am onto my 2nd glass of Macallan.There is a similarity but unlike Mark,Im not goin to create anything that is out of this world but I just want to freaking post a blog.Period.

Am I a pathetic loser who keeps reminding myself of the past?Here I am consoling others to let go of the past and move on but in actual fact,Im a hypocrite.Here I am telling people that partying is the way to go in order to feel good about yourself but in actual fact,I hate parties and only attend if Im forced to go.Here I am telling people that doing irrational stuffs like suicide and excessive smoking will not cure the pain but in truth,Im drink myself to sleep.What the fuck is goin on with me?

I lied.I lied to alot of people.I lied to the people I hold dear and whenever I see them,it kills me that I am lying in front of their faces.Fuck me man.Why I lied you ask?Because I hate to see them worry about me.I have done enough of bothering them.Fullstop.Every once in a while when I see them,I have to put on my fucking poker face where in truth,Im swallowing everything to make sure I look "FINE" in front of them.Am I good?No!Not a chance in hell!I apologize guys.I really do.

What is becoming of me?Have I changed for the better or for the worse?There was a time ago where I stand by the rules and believe in good values kinda of thing because I was naive to think that by being a good person,nothing bad will happen to me and people could see through my kindness but I was proven WRONG!!!I was treated like some unwanted rubbish and I lost my pride,integrity and self confidence by being so STUPID!!!

People say that if a person has a wide forehead,he is bound to be smart.I have a wide forehead..I think but Im not smart but the reason of my wide forehead is due to the fact that I spent most of my thinking.Not thinking of the next bubble that could make me rich but thinking of the past and the unnecessary.How pathetic can that be right?No matter how hard I try to forget the past,the mind will project dozens of stuffs from the past.It's like tit for tat.One memory gone and then one menory in.Fucking ass.How can you move to the present and the future if you are still in the past?Tell me how coz I badly need a fucking sensible and proven advice!!!

Migraines.Headaches.Insomnia.Nothing unusual for me.I get that alot with that I think Im immune by it.Everytime the mind will keep swirling something toxic.It's so powerful that in most cases if not all,I didnt put up a fight against the toxic.I simply can't.The best way to handle that toxic is to overwork myself till the point that my whole body starts to shake and shouting for me to stop and if I stop,the toxic will be there again to incur more pain than ever.No remedies.No cures.NO HOPE.

Have I achieve anything yet?Im not sure about what the rest are judging but the stuffs that was awarded to me was just pure luck.Nothing extravagant.Nothing spectacular.It's all pure luck.The scholarships,the prizes was all luck.I couldnt done it without the support of my friends.Thanks guys.Like I said,Im not a genius.Im not smart.I don't have any talent at all.Im only lucky to be there and about.THAT'S IT.You coulld easily find someone who can outdo,outsmart and outlast me anytime and I MEAN ANYTIME,

Im on my 3rd glass of Macallan.Everytime when I am at my office,I look at myself and said this has got to end,the sooner the better.Easier said then done.Whenever someone goes into my office and tell me about their problems,flashbacks comes in an instant and that sucks because I couldn't control it.Sometimes,I just want to shut my office door and barred people from entering with their problems but I can't.I don't have the heart to reject them and at the end of the day,Im the victim.Not them but ME!!!

Am I being this way because Im lonely?It's been 2 years.2 years of obscurity.2 years and I can't swallow of what had happened.I told myself that I don't want to see her again but there is a slight itch that I want our past back to the present and the future.Y?I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA.It's just maybe I need a closure and without that closure,I don't think that toxic will just disappear from my body.Have I not been a good guy when we were together?Tell me!!!I shouldnt have convinced myself that you are the one and due to that,my conviction still stuck onto and the only way to unstuck is to know the truth.THE UGLY FACT!!!but till now,I've yet to know.

Not only I lied.I hurt people.I was so fucking scared to get hurt that due to my naiveness and carelessness,I am hurting the people around me.Suddenly I became a selfish son of a gun.Im not going to mention any names here but I know that you know that you're the one hurt and even though I know that apologies are the weakest excuse for me to say,I wana apologize to you for being the victim of the incompetence of handling myself.

All in all,I am a fucking loser with no sense of directions in life.Let me be by myself and in that way,I won't lie and I won't hurt anyone.After tommorow's meeting with Tracy,I wana be on my own and it's time for me to stop the endless bothering and disturbance to the people that I have caused.I think it's time for me to look at myself and say FUCKING STOP IT AND DO IT YOURSELF!!!It's me and me and me.Nobody else.

Im at my 4th Macallan and havinga terrible migraine now.My legs and my fingers are shaking but I don't give a damn because it's normal to me.Nothing is right with me now and in the near future.Im popping my pills now as we speak and hopefully in a couple of minutes,I will just lie face flat on my bed and have at least 6 hours of peace and freedom form the mind.

I know there will be some grammatical errors but like said earlier,this is what I want and I don't give a fucking care whether it's right or wrong as long my conscience is clear.

Hope to see you people soon.

FUCK MY LIFE!!!

Ku Shin Bo

To put it bluntly,Im not a big fan of Japanese cuisine.In most cases,I dread of going to Japanese dinners as to me,there is nothing special to be worth salivating for in Japanese food.I can take an occasional sushi or two but I cant just cant stomach the sashimi's to the wasabi's as to me that's not culinary genious.Maybe Im bias here but a set of good knife skills and not doing any form of cooking except for the occasional deep-frying(Tempura) doesnt make a great chef.Not in my book.

However,my perception on Japanese cuisine slighlty change when I met Ku Shin Bo.A quiet tranquil restaurant that serves up Japanese food in buffet style.I could go on telling about this place but Im gona stop short here and just tell you of the must-eat dishes and leave the rest to you to experience yourself.

Of all the dishes which I really really enjoyed,I picked out two that stands out from me.

Dobinmushi is a soup based dish that is serve in a teapot.All you need to do is pour soup into a small cup and drink it like how you would do with tea.If you open the pot,it's filled with prawns,chicken and fish.It's taste is something like black chicken herbal soup but the ginger and ginseng(If my tastebuds is not failing me) elevates this soup and soothes you down.

Salmon sausage is not typically regarded as authentic Japanese delicacy but this is something that I've never tried before.I've had my fair share of sausage be it a bratwurst or the processed one but this salmon sausage is something to die for.It's simply soft and once you bite it,you can taste and feel the cheese oozing out from the sausage.Damn.

Even though I love those dishes,it doesnt mean that I am a fan of Japanese cuisine but who knows if there are more restaurants that serves up the dishes like how Ku Shin Boiis currently doing,instead of negativity,I may see positivity in Japanese cuisine.

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Ku Shin Bo!!!

A Charmed Life

I hate it when a person says that Im living a charmed life which I beg to differ."A well-respected job in national service that comes with a commendable salary.A scholarship holder with numerous future opportunities thats awaits you.A set of friends that will always be there if need be or just there whenever or wherever.If that is not living a charmed life,I have no idea what is!!!"She said.Before I could say another word,the person continued with this"Oops,there is more thing,if there is one thing that you lack,then it could be having someone,like a girlfriend but I don't think you need or start looking for one right now given the lifestyle you're having right now.Forget about Vis or whoever you're going out with now because I don't think you need an attachment in your life as I don't think she have what it takes to be beside your shadow right now at least."Fyi,this person Im talking about is happily engaged and marriage is on the cards this year and to think that she could be saying all those stuff,damn..WTH!!!

So am I living a charmed life?Is the world revolving around me?Let me answer that question,hmmx..HELL NO!!!

Personally,I think that there is alot in me that meets the eye.Unlike my peers who are carving a name in the industry,I have yet to find a job in the real cuthroat world as I need to serve time for at least another 11 months.So,I don't think I have achieve anything yet for now.A scholarship can only take you so far,so I dont think I deserve recognition for any success if having a career is concerned.

Yes,I do have a set of friends which I truly cherish and I've always said that no matter what I do,I know that I have a set of friends that I can always turn to them when I need them whether it's serious or casual.I keep saying this to you guys but thanx for everything.

Now,Jack wants me to have a girlfriend.Stance ask me to find a girlfriend.Some of the friends keeps telling me that it's ripe if I find one.The question is,should I have someone now?Hmmx,as far as Im concerned,my mind points out that Im ready to be committed towards a relationship as of now.I don't believe in fairy tales where all it takes is "I love you and it's happily ever after"I don't believe in it's perfectly alright if we don't have anything right now,we see how it goes and take it from there.I don't believe in love at first sight and soulmates.That is how pessimistic I am now towards this kind of thing but I believe that if you're equipped with the right credentials,then you will have someone there for you as love is getting materialistic by the minute.It's sad but it's true so you have to deal with it whether you like it or not.

I dont think I should be dwelling on this matter as If do that,it's going to do more damage than good so I think Im going to enjoy my "singlehood" while I can before someone else comes in to my life.I want that "Hangover" life where I can do anything and everything no matter what the consequences are.Some life if one could have right?As of now,Phuket Trip No 2 beckons and I can't wait for November and finally try all those watersports and previously I came at a time where there was an accident and was advised not to but now,Im packing up my trunks and wakeboarding skills and and for my ORD trip,it will be either Seoul Korea or Melbourne Australia!!!

Now,that's living a charmed life!!!

Inception Poker

Inception.A movie that everyone is raving about.A plot or a story that requires the viewers fullest attention and set your minds to think about the reality of this life we are living in.So what is Inception all about?Well,Inception is to perform an act by using dreams to implant an idea to a target's mind but if you think the polt is simple,you have to watch the whole storyline to guess the true nature of this plot and that is...

If Inception is real.If what potrays is real,then are we living in a dream as of now?Are we living in a projected world that what our minds perceive it to be and somewhere someplace right now,we are are actually sleeping and dreaming?It can happen.It can be true.It is possible.Food for thought people.Inception is a Masterpiece.

Moving on to a less serious matter,maybe it's the IR fever but Im damn hook on the game of Poker man.Damn the friend that introduce and taught me the game as right now,I cant get enough of the game!!!It's risky,it's dangerous but it's worth the cause and anxiety when the cards are revealed.I know that gambling is not best of health that a person can have but Im playing for fun here and I won't be be a hardcore addict of the game.Trust me.Bet big,win big is what they say.

Im running out of time to blog a little more but I will catch up on it soon yeah?See ya bloggers!!!

I Need Inception!!!

Self-Check

All it takes is just a cup of Iced Caramel Macchiato to set the thoughts rolling and roll it did.After satisfying my "retail therapy"urges by paying damages of around $200 to shops around Marina Square and Suntec City,I decided that I deserved my favorite cuppa and settled on the not so congested Starbucks Coffeehouse at One Fullerton and then...

Im not trying to sound "emotional" here but after sipping that refreshing Macchiato,I asked myself if Im happy with being the person that I am now and and truth be told,I couldnt find an answer to that.I just cant.

If education is concerned,I guess that Im doing alright and I never regretted coming to Shatec but if "money willing",I don't think I will stop with just a diploma as but hopefully a Bachelor's Degree with a university in Swiss,Australia or even here back home.That I have to wait after I served my time in National Service.

If National Service is concerned,even though Im not a big fan of having to serve the nation,I think Im doing just fine and try to enjoy myself since Im going to be in service for at least a year more but Im thrust upon to manage the financial funds and it's killing me but I will live through to as my objective of serving is O-R-D loh!!!

If social life is concerned,this is something that Im not too sure if I've done enough justice to make myself happy or disappoint myself.2 failed relationships.The latter being the distraught one.Not to forget,involved in a social fling that was heading nowhere up until it ended abruptly.

Is is just me or am I a jinx in this type of relationships?Everywhere I turned,I see myself crowded with friends who are happily attached,some engaged or even hitched and here I am now heading nowhere.Is it a curse or am I lacking self-belief if hitching with the other sex or am I just too picky in getting the one?Do I have that answer?To be honest,I don't have a freaking clue to answer that!Dont get me wrong,I have made tonnes of friends but sometimes,I just need that one person.

If I could find any possible reason,maybe I just couldnt engage or relate to the opposite sex.In some way or another,there will be a blip along the way and then the whole thing just went "Kaput".Just like that.

In all honesty,the only 2 girls that I could relate to or maybe can relate to me are the 2 ever iritating but supportive shorties,Trace and Stance.Haha.Im not too sure if they think if Im a close friend to them but as far as Im concerned,those two are the first two names I scroll through my phonebook if Im dealing with any problems or just bored.Don't get me wrong.Im not in love with them like emotionally.Hell no!!!Not only are they happily attached with their guys which Im happy for them but also I treat them like my own little sisters that I never had even though I wanna smack them on their heads when they iritate me!!!Haha.Btw Trace and Stance,Im not gay,Im straight you a holes!!!You will get me it from me soon.Haha.Hate you both!!!.Hahaha.

Im not really sure of where my life will turn but I hope it's pointing north but not south.Sometimes,it sucks to be what I am now but I will live through it.I kept thinking that there is another person who is far much worse than me and it helps when I think like that even though I know it's a bad thought to begin with but oh well.For now,I need to erase those past memories and tragedies first.I know that fairy tales won't happen in this world as Im a realist but I hope that one day,when I sit down again and sip my favourite Caramel Macchiato,I can proudly say"Hey,Im a happy guy now"

Just Take It By The Day!!!

Pictureless Post

"The reason,the real reason,in fact the only reason of why we are here in this pathetic state is because of your ignorance of getting over your past.You will not admit this but you have not forgotten abt her or should I say Esther.You keep on saying that it's over,you've gotten over her but in actual fucking fact,you didnt.She still lingers in your goddamn "brilliant" mind.You still spare a thought for her.I hate to say this but you,Fi still loves her.

God knows when that will change.Im tired of this.Im tired of people asking about us and have no fucking answer to their questions.I have waited so long and I am done of giving you chance after chance hoping that one day,you will finally see of what is happening to us but I guess Im too naive and stubborn to think that way.You may not notice this,in fact you have not notice this but we have been like this since September 08 and now it's fucking 2010 and we are in the same status as we first started hanging out.Can you believe that?You want me wait somemore?

I know you've been hurt.Fuck,the whole world know you've been hurt but the whole world also know that you've changed.I know you've changed but not entirely.If you can change to being that quiet,naive guy that doesnt catches anyone attention to the havoc-wrecking Tony Starck guy that you think you are,I don't see of why is it so hard for you to change your perspective in relationships,most importantly love.

You are not the only one in the world who have gone through this.There are others like you but I believe they have gotten over it.I have gotten about my past.Now all I think are present and the future and I want to include you in both my present and future but that is not to me to decide now.If they have gotten about your past,if I have gotten over my fucking past,I dont see why you cant do the same?

Im not giving you anything anymore.All Im asking is that you take a look at yourself and think of what our relationship means to you.Most importantly,ask yourself whether you have totally gotten over Esther.If you think that Im not the sort of girl that you think you should be with compared to the one that I won't mention,I totally understand that.Once I leave here,don't call or leave me a msg because I wont call or return that msg and I don't want us to hangout for now.Im not waiting for an answer Fi.Im waiting for an action.It's your call boy.

Take good care of yourself in Brunei especially your knee.I fucking hate goodbyes but if this is it,than this is goodbye."

And then she left.This is the most I could remember of the things she told me that Saturday.Im lost for words now and I guess that is all I have to say.

Injured Couch Potato

It looks like that my left knee with all the fibula(muscles for the norm) within it is the weakest part of my freaking body!!!Time and time again,it's that side of the knee that never fails to trouble me and now is no exception.An unexpected accident and booom!!!

Sometimes I wonder seriously if I should give up playing the sports that requires my knee co-ordination at it's optimum.Sometimes I really do wonder...

In all honesty,I did not reveal the full extend of my injuries to the masses as it would make them worry.From my family to my friends,they knew only to a certain extent of my injuries and that's about it.They have enough problems on their hands and I wouldnt want my injury to be a concern to them.Even when I was admitted to hospital,I barred anyone from visiting me as I do not want them to see me in this state.Not now.Not Ever.

Now,Im back to where I am in February.Being an injured couch potato and doing absolutely nothing purposeful and useful.I have no idea of my comeback date but I hope that it would be before Stance's birthday dinner as in a way,being the "A HOLE "that she is,I wouldnt want to miss it!!!Hahaha.

I think that is all I have to say about this post.After this,it's back to the television set,junkin on snacks and snore till cows come home.Damn,this is a fat boy mentality!!!

I Hate This!!!

That Awesome Trip

Sawadeekap!!!Eeerh,is that how you spell it?Hmmx,anyway,I just wana let you folks know that Im back from the ever so sunny region of Phuket!!!

If I have it my way,I wouldnt want to go back home at all but I have to as Im not ready to be living the life of a fugitive!!!Not yet at least..Hahaha...

Simply,this Phuket trip is one of the best trips that I've had so far.I was so reluctant to go back home that I was leaping with joy when I heard that our flight was delayed by 2 hours!!!Crazy right?Maybe Stance and Trace beg to differ but for me,thank god the flight was delayed even though I have to stay at the airport but it is still in Phuket.Enough said!!!

Whoever says that Phuket is just about the beach,water sports and not shopping,they are either lying or they are just travelling goons or dummies!!!While Phuket do a beautiful scenic beach and great water sports activities,it can also be classified as a shopping heaven and being a shopaholic that I am,I committed tons of shopping sins out there and my loots are mega in size compared to the loots from Trace and Stance and mind you,they are ladies and I outdo them in shopping!!!My God!!!

Speaking of Trace and Stance,in all honesty,being the great friends they are,I have to thank them for this Phuket trip simply because they make this trip happen.Im just the guy who goes along with it(Sometimes iritating them with questions about the trip!!!)but they are the ones who plan it right from airline tickets to hotel reservations and they done it right to a T.So,THANK YOU TRACE & STANCE FOR THIS TRIP AND HELPING ME TO BARGAIN MY LOOTS!!!We should do this again but this time,I'll help with the itinery yeah?!?Hahaha.

Btw girls,Im still straight yeah?!?I like girls and I love girls and that is the bottomline because I said so!!!I know that both of you treat me a "girl"(I wonder why???) but Im a guy and Im straight.FULLSTOP!!!

With that being cleared in open air,I guess that this is it.Like I said,I never wanted to return back home.Im already missing the Fanta drinks,the street vendors that serve the ever so tasty chicken noodle soup,the char grilled chicken,the thai massages(It's the clean one btw) and of coz the tuk tuk tik tik tak tak!!!Hahaha..

My regrets was not going to the real Muay Thai fights and also taste their jumbo tiger king prawns but on the bright side,it gives me a reason of me going back there right?!?

Well,come to think of it,I could see myself staying there.Be a cable ski instructor by day on one hand and learn Muay Thai and fight by night on the other.Sounds like a plan don't you think???

I Need Another Trip!!!

That Weekend

To be honest,Im practically clueless of posting a topic for my blog and that is somehow weird to me.I've always have a topic to post but not today my friends.Not today.You may blame it on the ever so dense forest air that I have to inhale daily when reporting for duty in which may cause my mind to stop thinking,let alone posting a topic.You may blame it on the lack of hours I spent at home that results in me not sitting down with my laptop and posting a topic on my blog.You may blame everthing that causes my lack of posts but since Im writing something here,I will try to squeeze something to this blog of mine!!!

Last weekend was my birthday weekend and the festivities started on a bit early than expected and it started on Thursday to be exact.As Im free for the day,cable-skiing was the first programme of the day.I was hell bent to enjoy myself and boy did I enjoy it.Flips,turns and not to mention splashing myself down to the waters but the waters really cools me down.If cable-skiiing is not enough,I was off to the Wavehouse next and it's bikini galore!!!Did I mention that I did some flowriding there but blame me for being sick and all but those Russian chicks at the Wavehouse was freakishly super hot!!!After that,Im off for drinks at Bikini Bar and I received some awesome presents at hand.Thnx you lot!!!

Friday was a much more quieter affair as my energy have been sapped out of me on Thursday and so I settle myself on dinner with Tracy and quickly fell in love with her...........niece.Haha.You should look at the pics that she shown me that day and damn,Rui En(Is this name right?I forgot about her christian name!!!) is damn cute.But I still prefer the Russian girls!!!After dinner,Im off for drinks again with my soccer mates at Timbre before sleeping my ass off.

Saturday was dinner and drinks at Timbre but this time unlike the Substation on Friday,it's at The Arts House.I bet the owners of Timbre are loving me right now given the revenue that Im generating for them!!!It was the first celebration with my NS mates and damn,it was a cool yet rowdy party.Booze and grub and not to mention laughter and joy makes the occasion a sight to remember.Again,It was presents and presents and again presents.I know that Im getting older but Im never too old for presents especially if I really do like it!!!The night is still young then and off we go to Clarke Quay and party ourselves hard at The Arena and show some greenhorns on what clubbing is all about.Haha.

Sunday was my birthday but it was a lazy day.I woke up to Garrett's call and it was I think 3pm and met with Zac and Trace to Zara for some exchanging of items.On a last minute scale,instead of Fish& Co,we then settle ourselves with tonnes of meats at Carnivore Chijmes and I hope Zac,Trace,Big G,Russ,Jacko and Carol do enjoy themselves munching on those irresistable delights.Coffee was next and we talked crap like old times till about 12am.No presents here but the gang that I had on the day is simply the presents that I was looking for.Guys,we need to hang out some time soon man.Haha.

Hmmx,that brought the end of a memorable and fun weekend.Im older now but I still feel that Im not as matured as I would like to be or what my friends think I am but nevertheless I had fun and throughly enjoyed it.Till next year then?Party on people!!!

Guess I do have a topic to post afterall!!!

Ligaments..Darn Hot Physio..What Matters...

Hey there folks.It's been a month since my last post and I think it's time for a fresh new one straight hot from yours truly.That's if you're reading my posts.

So what's new for me?Hmmx,my knee ligament is responding well to the physiotherapy treatment that I've been attending and the Bangkok trip looks a certainty and not a possibility!For now at least.It also helps when the physiotherapist is god damn freaking hot as I would not miss any appointments!Haha.Is it me or the medicine world is fast becoming an attraction for the hot and voluptuous women?Talk about real porn here.Btw,Im not a "chi ko peh" like some filthy uncles out there.Im just seeing a trend here.Don't believe me?See it for yourselves then.

Since Im injured,I cant do anything but eat,sleep,watch tv,eat and then sleep.You can say that it's a routine that everyone is dying to have but you will regret it once you start to feel that you gain a couple of freaking pounds!Yes,I admit.I am getting FAT.I am losing my abs(Not bragging here!) by the day,getting very tired easily and sleep worse than the laziest pig on earth and as a result,I am a well-marbled guy.Haiz.It's frustating when you can't do anything about it!Haiz.

April is a month where my fellow DHM friends will end their year long enduring internship at their respectibe hotels and resorts.All I can say to them is "Congratulations" for having the patience,perseverance and dedication to intern for the past year in order to obtain the diploma certificate.You guys deserve the diploma and you guys should know that.So what's next for them?It's anyone guess.

Since I am in this "Shatec' topic,I feel that there is no better place to be than Shatec Institutes.I am saying not because Im sucking up but it's the fact.I believe that Shatec changed me as a person and made the person that I am today.In reference to that,Shatec means my mentor,my trainers,the staff,the janitor aunties and most importantly my friends.I will not change them for the world.

There is also one person that Ive yet to say "Thanks" too because I don't think she deserved it until now but she left a deep impact on me that in return I've changed to who I am now.That person is my ex-gf-Esther.I know that I will have some hate mails when her name is mention but it's fact that she left me a lasting impression that dare I say dramatically turn me 360.

If she had not done the despicable things that she did,I would be the same"follow the rules,on the ball,blur looking" guy and I would not have the courage to compete and won the various competiton that I've been in and I wouldnt be in posters,magazines,websites and on television.

Once again,I am not being boastful,over confident,snobbish,arrogant and a show off guys.I still know my roots and Im grateful for that.But it's a fact,that if she had not done those things,I would not be the person that I am today.So Esther if you're reading this,I still cant forgive you for the things that you did but I would like to say "Thank You" for making me the person that I am now.

With that being said,it's not entirely about Esther.This group or set of people was there and still am the driving force behind what I've achieved so far.

So here's a special thanks and appreciation to my Shatec mates: Vis,Kar,Trace,Stance,Nish,Sarah,Paul,Jack,Lest,Lynn,Garrett,Russ,Edmund,Dinesh,Isaac and Ah Quan!!!

If Rome Was Not Built By One Man

Then,I Will Not Be The Person I Am

Without The Support From You Guys

I Made It So Far

Because Of You Guys!!!

Couch Potato

Since Im so called "Bedridden' for the time being thanx to the injury I've sustained during my training,Im stuck with being a couch potato for at least a month and practically,Im not doing anything that I can count as useful!!!Damn it!!!

With that being said,Im not complaning that much as the "God Of Television" have hooked me up with some rocking awesome shows that will keep occupied through the day.Thank You Mate!!!

Series such as Glee which is like a High School Musical remake keeps me glued to my TV set on Wednesday's.Unlike High School Musical,Glee has a much more substance to it and humorous in a way.Damn,I figure that if there is a showdown between the cast of Glee and the cast of High School Musical,there is no question that the cast of Glee will win hands down and make the likes of Zac Efron,Vanessa Hudgens cry their way out of the stage because they know that they are not as talented as THE ENTIRE CAST OF GLEE!!!.Nah,Im not going to tell you guys of what is Glee all about as I want you guys to watch it and I dare say that once you watch,you're surely hooked to Glee.Trust the couch potato here.

Another series that attracts me is our own local "The Pupil".It sets us into the law world and culture in Singapore and the story is about a young lawyer termed as a pupil(Do correct me If Im wrong guys)who is working for her uncle's law firm with a hidden agenda on the back of her mind.Alright,you can rave about Rebecca Lim's acting skills and so(Damn,she's hot aint she?) but to me as always Adrian Pang makes the show tick.Im no actor or a show critic but I know that when he acts,he displays a certain charisma and professionalism to his character that will turn a so-so show into a good show.Still not buying it?Watch the Blue Mansion.Enough said.

If I keep on babbling about series,shows or movies,I think my blog would be like a novel and so I'll stopped at these two awesome shows or series.Watch it!!!A Must See!!!

Regarding my injury,there is a slight improvement with my movement.I can walk slowly step by step without my crutches and this is a good sign but Im living by painkillers to ease the pain.I hope that by my next medical appointment,my muscles would heal back to it's normal self or I have to be under the knife for yet another surgery and the thoughts of going through the operating table is scaring the hell out of me.Damn it!!!God Of Health,do help me at this point man!!!

That's it for now folks.Hope you guys are having a rocking time outside and till then,Chaoz!!!

No Pain,No Gain!!!

What Is It That You Do?

Have you ever been clueless about your life so far?Have you ever been in a daze of what is actually happening in your life?Have you ever been in a situation that you're totally speechless when people ask about how your life is spanning out so far?

Over the weekend,I was swapping the jungles of Pulau Tekong to the beaches of Batam Island for the much awaited Wakeboarding trip and boy oh boy,it was the most meaningful trip that I've had so far and Im not talking about wakeboarding.

After literally a day of endless wakeboarding, me and my mates decided to head to our favourite food stall to wind down and nevertheless fill our empty stomach with the best Nasi Padang that the Batam food scene has to offer.As usual and always,we were joking around and making a fool of ourselves,blurting unintelligent words to the camera,drinking loads and loads of Bintang's and asking our Auntie Kalsom for more dishes as we couldnt get enough of her home-cooked dishes.

Then,something interesting happens. As we wait for another round of Bintang's,a kid,a boy who is roughly around 7 years old and doubling up as a waiter came up and ask me"Mister,what is it that you do?"I was speechless.I was flabbergasted and the reason for me not able to answer him is not because of the influence of 5 bottles of Bintang's that I've had but simply because that I can't find an answer for him.Before I could utter a word back to him,maybe an unintelligent one,Auntie Kalthom called him and there he was,off leaving me with that intellectually deep question which remain unanswered.

I couldnt get over it.So does my friends.All of us were having our moment of reflection as we board the ferry back home.We couldnt find a true answer and were silent the whole time thinking and pondering about our own individual life.

As for me,Im in my 20's this year,23 to be exact but unlike most of my peers,I barely even think about what's next for me in the next 2 months furthermore 5 years?So Im not a planner but in a way a realist.I have forgotten about my past and Im not thinking of the future but the present.The present only.Life is short and we don't know of how long we're gonna live but as long as we are breathing,make sure we make the best of our lives.Be it in love,career or education,if you believe you have a shot,then shoot it.Times waits for no one and in all honesty,nice guys or girls do finish last.So make the best of your individual life because if you do,you will have a big fat smile for the rest of your life.Assurance guaranteed.

So here's my answer to the kid"Well kid,Im not really sure about what is it that I do but Im loving and enjoying the things that I do now."

What Is It That You Do?!?

The Monthly Dose

Tik-Tok Tik Tok.Date Check:29 January 2010

At one moment I was wishing everyone "A Happy New Year" and the next moment it's the end of the month?At this speed rate,time really flies.

Life in service is getting busier and hectic by the day.I've always thought that National Service is all about the physical aspect but I was wrong.There seems to be a whole load of paperwork and emails to attend to and it keeps piling up everytime I book in into camp.Haiz.It's even worse than doing night audit at Sha Villa!!!On top of that,I still have to perform my primary duties like going to field camps,performing camp duties and other etc stuff.Im loving it..NOT!!!

Jack-Fyi,I can pick up any calls.You can't do that when you're just enlisted but once you're commissioned,picking up a call is at your own discretion.Haha.

Dear One,our paths are segregating by the day and in a way,I kinda expect that this will be the road that we will go through.My mates and that includes your former beau are trying their best to find themselves a partner but not me.To have a partner while you're in service is like an honour to them but is it really an honour?Im not too sure about that myself.Is it a must to have a partner now?That question is baffling through my mind as I'm typing down this post.

We had our differences but we also did share those happy moments and sometimes in camp,when Im in bed struggling to sleep,in a way,yeah,I admit that you're in my mind most often of times.Damn,my mind say no but my heart say yes.It doesnt help when certain parts or you body are not cohesive towards one another.I just don't want a repeat of another heart-wretching pain.Alright,I have to stop now before it gets worse.

If Im ready,will you be ready?

Thailand trip is around the corner?Eeerh,even though there is still 3 more months to go,I am being optimistic by saying that Im not far off from flying to Thailand and let loose.How I wish it could be tommorow.Shops selling FBT apparels,beware as Im coming to get them!!!Haha

We are just days away from February and I hope February will be an even better month than January and I hope to have a smooth sailing February ahead of me even though Im yet to have a Valentine.Haha.But that is not a problem that will lose me any sleep.

That is all the time I have for you folks,till then,Cheers!!!

P.S:Purchase the March cover of August magazine because your's truly is in one of the bulletin segments and do purchase it at any publishing stores near you!!!

I Hate Paperwork!!!

First Entry Of 2010

Finally,I get the chance to post my first entry of the year!!!I know it's kind of belated but with the internet now a scarce resource in camp and the usual connection error that is taking ages to fix,I can't do much given that I spent most of my days in camp and not at home.How interesting my life is now!!!Haha...

First of all,Happy New Year 2010 to my fellow bloggers!!!Like I said before that it's kind of belated but at least a wish is a wish no matter how early or late it is.Haha.Hopefully,2010 will bring more parties for me to enjoy and extinguish all that sadness away from me!!!

I was at that infamous "Siloso Beach Party" and apart from the negative press,it was one heck of a party aite.It's not up there with the likes of Zoukout but it's still one heck of a party.Parties are held with the intention of enjoying the shit out of yourselves till you drop dead.The "Siloso Beach Party" is just like any other parties.In defence to the girl,I believe that just like everyone that is on the party,she was letting her hair down and that explains the way she dance like there is no tommorow.Yeah,she was creating attention alright but she was enjoying herself and doesnt in any way offend the people on hand.She has her own right so we have to respect that.

On the other hand though,She is a girl after all.With her creating that sort of attention,she was bound to attract those lustful cheap pathetic men.Many netizens says that she deserved it and although I tend to agree with them,I believe that it is not entirely her fault.Those men should be given the stick.These are the kind of people that is creating and potraying a negative impact on the nightlife party scene.

Another reason for this hoo-haa was because that it's a girl being taken advantaged off.Would it make the front page if it's a guy being taken advantaged off?I don't think so.I've seen scenes far more worse that this and Im resting my case now.

Enough about that and start thinking of the Bangkok trip.It sounds odd but I've never been to the land of the thousand smiles before and Im tempted to jump on the plane to Bangkok but the problem is that I can't give an answer due to my freaking service commitments.I hope that by this week I will give the answer to Stance or Trace and I hope it's a good answer as I've had enough of breathing and smelling jungle air and I want to swap that with the aroma of Tom Yam Goong,Beef Noodles and Papaya Salad!!!

Alright people,Im taking my leave now as I need to report back to camp.The best place that a guy can be now.See you folks!!!

Happy New Year 2010!!!